One of my favourite lines from Buffy the Vampire Slayer is when Xander comments on what someone else is doing and is told not to be judgemental. His reply, no, not judgy, observy, is both accurate and inspiring. One of the ways we learn and grow is by looking at what other people are doing, but there is a fine line between judgy and observy. I hope I’m just about staying on the correct side when I say that a lot of people who talk and write about the law of attraction and raising their frequency do so in the context of wanting success in life, be that in business, attracting a romantic partner, needing ready money or even just a parking space. The focus is on raising their frequency in order to attract good things to them. Although I agree that that works, for me it’s more the other way around.
For me right now the raising of the frequency is the thing. Everything I do, everything that happens to me, is an opportunity for my frequency to rise (or to drop). That’s my focus.
This (illusionary) world is there for us to interact with, to find out who we are through the way we respond and the actions we take. The experiences are a vehicle rather than the thing itself. Our mission here isn’t the actual achievements, the extraordinary and the everyday adventures; these are the how, rather than the what. Our mission is to find out who we really are.
And who are you? A powerful creator, the centre of your universe. You were asleep, and now you are awake.
I had this perfect little snapshot earlier: in bed in the spare/my room which is all cream and more or less clutter free, just a few essentials, a portable electric radiator, and my tablet propped up on two lilac yoga blocks, the opening credits of BoJack Horseman, all warm toffee and pink colours, like Neopolitan ice cream, that lovely woozy music, with BoJack the horse sitting up in bed, waking up… A momentary snapshot of ‘yes’. Yes, okay, yes, I created this.
So I can believe in my room. Can I extend this to advice I have miraculously come across on WordPress, and the teachings of my awareness guru? What if everything is there to tell us exactly what we need to hear? What if all I need to do is face down the complexity of it all and distil it into something so simple (and so amazing) that it would trip a switch right now and the light would come on?
I think maybe we arrived here as adults, and were children only in a previous life. What if all my childhood memories are just deja vu, memories leaking in from another life? One night when we had just moved in my husband and I were sitting by the fireplace and I had this vision of us being old sitting there, or sitting there in a previous decade. I looked at him and said, don’t you see, we’ve always been here. So this time around we must do something different, and leave.
So I can give up potatoes and cutting my hair easily enough. I can keep on working on staying in my now day and not being judgemental. I can reduce and restrict the amount of sex and orgasms I have. I can do all of that, with the intention of frequency raising. One day maybe I will completely give up the low frequency activities, but right now just as I occasionally eat co op donuts (vegan) but overall believe myself to have a healthy diet, I still want to have the occasional wild night.
This is where I am right now. The message that has been circling at the outer edges of my consciousness all week is this: There are no rules, except those I set myself.
There are no rules, except those I set myself.
There’s just one tiny flaw in today’s, or rather yesterday’s revelations. If everything is a creation of my own mind, that is at times hard to believe. Like whilst watching the amazing, incredible, completely original show that is BoJack Horseman*, for example. But it isn’t that I literally created everything out of my own mind, it is that I pulled it towards me. I drew what I needed to me. The teachings of my awareness guru. Advice and insights from WordPress. Like in The Field, all possibilities exist for us to then create our reality from. But, and this is where we come back to the beginning again, as a happy by product of raising one’s frequency, good things do arrive.
And it doesn’t matter whether I’ve been walking and blogging like last weekend, or cleaning and decorating and overdoing it like during this week, or being laid up in bed with a cold watching Netflix like this weekend, it’s all me, it’s all life. Learning has still gone on and progress has been maintained, even if I haven’t realised it until later.
*Shines a light on everything and shows just how f***ed up most media, consumer society etc is, not by being negative but by being a beacon of light. Really interesting reading interviews with the show’s creator Raphael Bob-Waksberg.